Nabila

I have a sweet tooth. I love cakes and pastries and almost anything sweet, except for sweets themselves (ironically). So back when I went out with my friends for lunch at Pizza Hut in 2018, after stuffing ourselves with so much food, because I loved cakes so much, I still ordered this Molten Chocolate Lava Cake (I think it was just out back then?) even when I was already so full. But I wanted that cake! I stressed it out so much to my friends when they said, "Afifah, you're so full already, ice cream is coming, maybe it's a bad idea". I did not listen, because I wanted it so much. And yes, they ended up being right, and although I did finish the cake, I didn't get to enjoy it as I would usually do. And my friends have been referring to this event as the "SAYA MAU JUGA" event until this very day because I was that comically annoying when I want something I shouldn't have.

The point here is, I'm the type of person who won't listen to anyone once I want something. Even if I know other people are right, even if I know the thing that I want will be bad for me.  

And I've been having another kind of Molten Chocolate Lava Cake situation for a while now... That I don't know want how to let go. I'm not the type of person to leave cakes unfinished just because they're bad, because I value the ingredients and work that went into making the cake. But this cake, unlike other cakes I've had before, triggered a lot of allergy reactions, weirdly, because I do not have any allergies. But you see... this lava cake is my first real out-of-actual-bakery cake, and I spent almost all of my savings on it, so it would be a shame to throw it away. And because I have been eating it for a while, it feels so natural in my mouth, and the allergy reactions, despite getting worse and worse every day because they go untreated, now only feel like that itch on your foot you can't scratch. 

Now here comes the part where I conclude this post and share how I overcome this... but I can't because it's an ongoing situation. Advice is welcome, and please send prayers because I feel like my allergic reactions are killing me slowly.