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Hyperfixate on me until you tire,
Until another girl takes your love.
It's nice to feel your gaze for once;
It's good to feel your presence.
Look at me until your eyes wander,
Until you decide it was never more than passing.
It's something to be cared for,
Even when I know it isn't forever.
Maybe love me until you don't,
Maybe hold my heart until it cracks.
Maybe notice everything I do
Until it dissolves into nothing.
Maybe stay—long enough
For me to forget the silence.
I'm an unwelcome branch against your dry wall,
An odd accessory to your plain coat—
That's all I am.
So I tell myself not to believe,
Not to mistake shadow for permanence,
Not to hope too much.
Yet I know you'll go,
And I will be left,
A name you once spoke,
A heart you almost held.
220410 / to me - leith ross
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This was an old one, written when I was 21, and recently polished. One of my favourite pieces I've ever written. This was very much inspired by the character Rosaline from Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet, and my previous experiences being the girl guys looked at until they found someone they wanted. I think I had just finished rereading Stephen Chbosky's The Perks of Being a Wallflower back when I wrote this, so that might be the catalyst to this sad piece LOL.
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