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| Photo by me! Private IG account saw it first. This was a heart-shaped tree somewhere along my jogging route (Me? Jogging? HAHA I know right? But I did jog okay.) |
Eyes meet eyes
From across the aisle
A glimpse of recognition in yours
Glints of light in mine
It has been three months
Since we both said anything to each other
There's a bit of awkwardness in the air
And a bit of tension in my heart
I say hello first to break the silence
You say hi back and there's a crack in my wall
Exchanges of how are you
And what are you doing
But never I'm sorry I didn't wish you a happy birthday
Nor I'm sorry I didn't reply to your texts
But it's okay because we're both past it
And I'm no longer twenty-one
So things like that don't phase me anymore
Just a few other formal exchanges to be civil
I don't ask about that girl you've been seeing
And you don't ask about the man I'm not seeing
As we walk towards the exit door of the supermarket
I look at your car that I have involuntarily memorized
As you start the engine and say goodbye
And we say see you like it's inevitable that we'll meet again
But in my head I say farewell forever
I'm leaving our town for good to never come back
You haven't heard about that.
221221/listening to: skinny dipping by sabrina carpenter
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This was written on the 21st of December 2022. This was a personal one, and I'm not doing so okay currently. Hopefully, three months from now I'll see the reasons behind everything and be able to move forward without regret. I'll be starting my internship by the time this is posted, I don't know if I'll be able to write the POV from the three-months-from-now me. I'm planning to say how much of this is true. Who knows, I'll probably say "DUDE THIS EXACT THING HAPPENED". I miss you, I wish we were something to at least be able to say that to you. How would I be able to say that when what we had was barely a situationship?
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